On the Ugliness Of Committment

Dear friend,

Today’s one of those days.

I woke up and didn’t know what to write about.
No idea. No clarity. No spark.

Just a foggy head and a blank page.

But I’ve made a commitment to write every day.
So I sat down.
And I started typing—anything.

Not because I felt inspired.
But because I said I would.

And then, like it always does, something shifted.

Because at some point, my brain begins kicking, just like it is now.

Now I know what to write about.

Now an idea entered my head:

“The ugliness of commitment.”

Nobody talks about this part.

The part where you commit to something—and it doesn’t feel good.
The part where it’s not exciting, not creative, not even rewarding.

Just effort.
Just showing up.
Just doing what you said you'd do when you no longer feel like doing it.

That’s commitment.
And sometimes, it’s ugly.

But here’s the thing: every time I push through that—something shows up.

Just like it did now.

I sat down with nothing to say, so I wrote that.
And look where it took me.

So I guess the point of this letter is:

When you jump, you land somewhere.

– Adrian